March 24, 2021 at 8:15 AM #9041
My name is Shanmugam P. I am from Tamil Nadu, southern part of India. In school days I was very curious about life and why we are here; I read Ramakrishna Paramahamsa, texts about Yoga and many Hindu scriptures including Bhagavad Gita. When I was about 18, I started to feel a lot of meaninglessness. It is when I was introduced to more clear and practical guidance towards spirituality through the books of Osho.
I had my first epiphany, a spiritual experience and taste of non-duality during 2002. It was the result of witnessing meditation, which I talk about a lot in my books, blogs and videos. I was very excited and the effects of that experience actually lasted for 6 months.. It was as if I had discovered a totally new way to make myself happy. I became a very dedicated seeker after that.
Over the next 12 years, I was introduced to the books and videos of many teachers including Eckhart Tolle, J.Krishnamurti, Papaji, Ramana Maharshi and hundreds of western teachers. I was going deeper and deeper, and it has all been an insightful exploration; the exploration seemed to be endless. I was looking forward to a next epiphany or spiritual experience, another dimension of consciousness, another pleasant and mind blowing session of meditation. Many times I did have many mind blowing experiences and insights and there were many times when I felt nothing. Getting into the states of flow was very easy for me; whenever I was focused on some work, I used to enter long hours of no thoughts about me, my past or future. (The meditation I did was sakshi bhavana or witnessing meditation; it was called ‘Choiceless awareness’ by J.Krishnamurti).
But this exploration seemed to be endless. Sometimes I thought that this is how it was going to be for the rest of my life. And I feel that most of the seekers are actually stuck in this stage.
Anyway, it was during 2014. By this time, my life was very simple. I had a lot of time to go deep in witnessing meditation. I had already been living with a changed dimension of consciousness for the previous 12 years. But as I continued my meditation, I was suddenly in a totally timeless realm. On July 12th, 2014, when I was lying on my bed, there was a clear recognition that my search was over, that I reached what I have to reach as a human being.
It was like this. You are on a train on a journey towards a destination. When you are focused on a totally different work, you suddenly realize that the train has already stopped and the destination has been reached. In fact, you didn’t even notice exactly when the train arrived there; it may be before 2 minutes, 5 minutes or 1 minutes.
I can’t really write about what happened after that the same way I wrote about what happened until that day. It is absolutely impossible. The next two years simply went on, very similar to how the first two years of my life went; like a child who doesn’t worry about anything, who eats when he is hungry and sleeps when he is sleepy. It was simple and absolutely blissful.
Only in 2016, I had an interest to write about what happened to me in my blog. I knew my life was not like others; it wasn’t a journey in time towards a future anymore. If I don’t write about it I will eventually forget it. Eventually I ended up writing a book (The Truth About Spiritual Enlightenment: Bridging Science, Buddhism and Advaita Vedanta), starting a Youtube channel and growing my audience.
I am able to articulate things much better now and I am also adapted much to my transformation. And this is truly a gift, the kingdom of God, with absolutely no comparison. I have been doing more videos than ever these days and guiding seekers with my experiences. I can be your spiritual friend, but not as a guru or a teacher…
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