January 4, 2020 at 4:58 AM #8045
I do hope that I have come to the right place.
My partner underwent his spiritual awakening last year, it opened my eyes and changed my mindset compeltely as the whole concept was new and strange to me. I felt like my whole life was a lie and I was coming to terms with that. I came to love all, I became vegan, my love came from nature, yoga and meditation. I thought (stupidly so) that I too had gone through an awakening, little did I know that was just the start of it.
I am now in the ‘dark knight’ stage of awakening, this started around 4 months ago not long after I became pregnant, I feel that for some reason this has triggered that and I am truly struggling to push through this stage.
I don’t think it helps whatsoever with being pregnant and highly emotional.
I am just seeking some guidance, some support from anybody who has gone through this. I am truly feeling at a loss, completely depressed and fed up with the world. I know that my soul needs to go through this stage to purge all of the bad things that have happened in my life and my past life -(it truly has been a roller coaster, and things that I never expected to have effected me from the past truly have).
But now, I feel the urge to change. I know what I need to do but I am truly struggling to do it. I feel so alone in the world, like I have completely lost myself. Is this a new stage?
I also was having dreams, signs that somebody is trying to communicate with me, but it all seems to have just stopped. It feels like all the doors are closed but I still have this HUGE urge to communicate with something, but I don’t know what. I didn’t know if anybody could advise me on how to do this? It truly does feel as if it’s my purpose and whenever I speak about it I always get signs from the spirit world.
I hope this makes sence and I truly hope that somebody on here can shed some light on this experience and how they managed to get through it. And also any support in communication with the spirit world as I often feel like I am going crazy!
ThankyouDecember 12, 2020 at 7:35 PM #8761
It will seem that everything you have ever been told was a lie..but they are like little fibs that an adult tells a child..you know, because our authority figures as children don’t know how to answer the child’s questions..the children are much more aware and in fact more intelligent, so they ask difficult questions, most adults opt for giving the child a little santa clause like lie…they have good intentions, you know what is said about good intentions..hehe..you’ll be okay..the thought wants to stick to what it KNOWS, this is very difficult so one begins to question EVERYTHING, ALL authority, it is a tight rope walk, there is nothing I can say to you except that it’ll be okay.July 25, 2021 at 10:31 AM #9295
my name is Illura and I am just reading your post that you wrote 7 months ago now, which means that your baby may already have been born! A crazy time for sure!
Feel free to respond to my email if you are still feeling crazy. i may be able to help. You need to be careful – we all do when it comes to spiritual awakenings. It can be a scary experience if you have used certain techniques in certain ways and mixing that with your overall perspective etc.
I will leave it there -but feel free to reach out through this forum if you are still afraid and things are not getting better for you!
The Purest Light To You – Illura
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