January 17, 2016 at 10:26 PM #1656
I’m fascinated by the way the ‘flow’ can take me over now. Gina Lake’s books must have had a part in this. I had experienced brief times before, just a few hours maybe, on my days off work, alone in the house, when rather than planning what to do, I would just ‘potter’ around, doing whatever is in front of me, doing the next thing in front of me, relaxed, content, listening to music.
My grandad used to enjoy ‘just tiffling around.’ I wonder whether he was finding the same experience. I used to admire his answer, when someone asked about future plans. He would say, ‘we’ll be guided by the circumstances.’ My mum reckons he just said that when he didn’t want to do what was being suggested. He was also very mindful. In the garden in summer, when there was chit-chat going on all around, he might say, with satisfaction, “I can feel the sun, warm, on my back.”
This flow appears to have become more persistent. This weekend, it has been as if a whirlwind has been flying around the house. It has had me putting things where they should be, where they are most useful. So, my desk has come out of the bedroom, and gone downstairs into what was my husband’s little weights room. All the weights and the stationary bike have gone up into my son’s bedroom. He is at university. Things which have been hidden away in cupboards, stuffed out of sight, have been brought into the light of day, discarded if not needed, moved to an appropriate location, or returned in a more ordered state.
There was magic. Snowfall. A starry crisp walk to a local pub to watch live music. Youngsters learning to express themselves. Other youngsters keeping up an image. A more experienced man, making adjustments to the gadgetry to help their music and voices blend. A short guy in a sailor cap, joining in, uninvited, with a penny whistle.
Finally a bath. Quiet, relaxation. Submersion. Ankles crossed so upper body suspended, nose just above the water, a floating meditation. Breathe in, body rising, breathe out, body falling, breathe in…
Brief frustration trying to burn a CD using recently updated software. Surrender, plea for help. Help given. DVD plans abandoned in favour of ‘do you want to go to bed with me?’January 18, 2016 at 3:34 PM #1660
Yes, the Tao. The great flow of life. The surrender to life as it is in every moment. Has this ever not been true? We may not have noticed before, but life is always unfolding in this perfect way. Only our ideas about it appear to interfere with this perfect flow. Wonderful. 🙂January 24, 2016 at 7:13 PM #1668
Update on living in the flow, the Tao.
I know this sounds weird. I kind of hope it may be a temporary phase or lesson, but…
Does anyone else find that they cannot pee unless they ask? I know one friend has found this.
Maybe it’s addressing my fear of losing control over this bodymind. The fear about the other night, when things were said without any prior plan to say them until the second before. Things which seemed harsh. But have actually been very helpful.
I keep thinking I ‘need a wee.’ I go to the toilet. I wait. Nothing happens. It is unclear whether any weeing is now needed. So I go back about my life.
Then again, the feeling of a need to wee.
What works for me, I have just found, is to go to the toilet, and say silently “OK Spirit. Please wee through me, if it be your will.”
At least it works silently. Otherwise it could be awkward.
It reminds me of a Buddhist nun we met in a retreat. She asked could we help her with her rules. Unsure what this would involve, we said, yes of course, if we could. Her rule was that she could only take food which had been offered to her. The system was that each morning, she needed to have someone say to her, “help yourself to food.” Then she was ok to take her food from the kitchen for that day, whenever she needed to. The person who had been doing this for her was having a rest day, so she asked us. It was an honour.
It also reminds me of a friends Course in Miracles daily practice. Each morning praying, and also putting Holy Spirit in charge of the day, using a Course prayer:
“Father, your healing Voice protects all things today,
and so I leave all things to you.
I need be anxious over nothing,
for your Voice will tell me what to do,
where to go, to whom to speak
and what to say to him.
The safety that I bring is given me.
Your healing Voice protects all things through me.
So, a theme of continually giving authority to something greater, to ask it how to turn up in this world which in reality is like a dream.
The final lessons of the Course suggest taking this even further. Not just each morning, but every hour, or every 15 minutes, or every single moment perhaps eventually, like a constant way of being, to give authority to the Truth of us rather than the limiting thoughts about ourselves, our ego.
But having gentle compassion and forgiveness for ourselves, every time we forget.
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January 25, 2016 at 12:12 AM #1670
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Yes, this is good. To live an awakened life is to live in constant complete surrender. It’s not difficult once it is done. It is just the way we live. There is no more I to surrender. When the I is gone, there is just the state of surrender, which is oneness with all of life. Instead of preferring life to be one way or another and resisting what isn’t the way we prefer, we simply accept and love what is as it is simply because it is. Really, does doing anything else actually make sense? Things are the way they are in each moment, aren’t they? Does wanting them to be different make any sense? They are not different. No amount of wishing or resisting will make it so. In each moment, things are simply the way they are. Rejoice. It’s wonderful. You are alive. Count your blessings. Your preferences are just thoughts. That’s all they are. Do you really want to prefer a thought over what actually is? How’s that working out?
Relax. Surrender to what is. Love what is. How else can you be happy?January 25, 2016 at 12:27 AM #1674
Normal service is restored!
Just being aware in the present moment is once more enough to ‘let it flow.’
👍February 4, 2016 at 3:01 AM #1700
hahaha that’s great
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