Hello. Thank you Peter for your response.
I just re-read my post. There is some embarrassment now, that there was so much anger and fear evident there, in a thread about supposedly living in an awakened state!
Yes, ideas are arising, which are not coming from the lower mind. That was what made it strange and scary, to the lower mind. Lower mind was not in charge of coming up with the idea, of choosing whether to speak the idea. I have given authority to the Higher Mind now. This is unfamiliar territory. Hazel has always been shy, undemanding, avoided all confrontation.
So I guess, Higher Mind spoke, then lower mind heard the firmness of the talking, and seemed to interpret it as justified anger maybe, and hijacked the conversation.
Yes. The presence behind the ego emotions, was and is completely unconcerned about what happens And I have had focus back there again most of the day, thank God.
I don’t know what “this” is. But it feels completely different from Hazel.
This apparent duality is experienced as uncomfortable. It seems best to allow merging. Or as I have heard you say it Peter, the awareness is aware of all (including Hazel, thoughts, feelings etc) but also IS it all.
A friend has directed me to read the work of Meher Baba.