Radiant Light and Love
A Spiritual Biography of the True Self
I experienced this Radiant Light and Love as a young child often when I was alone. By age twelve the noise of the world and my thoughts had drowned It out. At twenty-two years, It returned full force and completely overcame the noise of the world, thought and all self-identity. What I had thought I was dissolved completely in this Light and Love. The experience was pure heaven, absolute peace, bliss and unconditional love.
It was then that I first realized the great power of this Radiant Light and Love to heal people. Many people were healed in those ten days before thoughts of a separate self were re-established. This profound experience and the seeming loss of it after only ten days was the beginning of a dedicated spiritual search that lasted over thirty years.
In my early fifties, a Near Death experience from a bad surgery and several other profound awakenings initiated the return of this Radiant Light and Love in a more complete and permanent way. I found myself remaining in silence for long periods of up to a year at a time completely immersed in this Presence of God, for this is what I called It. It was then that this Light began healing people again. Since that time, It has continued to increase for the past twenty years.
Now a transmission is often felt by people around me, as this is what It does. I realize this Light and Love as my True Self and the True Self of all existence. All that is not This is but a dream of thought. Most people are not aware of It, nor are they able to see It. It is not a light of photons that can be seen with human eyes. I can’t honestly say how I can. Most people are distracted from realizing It by thoughts and thought-based perceptions of the world and a separate self. Yet, in Truth, beneath all this illusion and appearance shines this Radiant Light and Love. It is always here. Nothing that exists could exist without It.
Please understand that words cannot possibly describe an experience that is completely beyond words and thoughts, as all reality is. The only understanding is found in the direct experience beyond words and thoughts. And this is always available to you.
If you are open to it, this can be experienced in Satsang. I hold Satsang online every Saturday from noon to 2:30 PM Pacific Time and both online and at the Zendo in Sedona from 7:00 PM to 8:30 PM Arizona Time each Monday.
Directions to the Sedona Zendo of the Awakened Heart in Sedona, Arizona and how to attend online can be found here: Living Awake Satsang and Satsang – Living in Truth
Peter Cutler is a Zen Monk, artist and spiritual teacher living in Sedona, Arizona.
The painting “When Two or More” can be seen at the online Zen Brush Gallery:
Namaste Peter, you mentioned “ Many people were healed in those ten days before thoughts of a separate self were re-established .. “ did that mean the healing stopped when you went back to separate self ?
Yes. As a separate self, I could no longer touch my True Being, and that’s where the healing came from. The separate self was just back in the dream with all its defenses and resistance to reality.